Let Us Feast (on anxiety)!
Every year, I write myself an essay of gratitude on Thanksgiving.
This year, I think I am too nerve wracked by anxiety to string anything philosophical together.
Every year, I write myself an essay of gratitude on Thanksgiving.
This year, I think I am too nerve wracked by anxiety to string anything philosophical together.
I’m a little risk averse. And I’m kind of afraid of heights. Yet somehow, I’ve never been afraid of taking great leaps. It’s the thrill of the unknown. The possibility that I will come across something I’ve never seen before. The opportunity to pull off some piece of old self and reveal something new and […]
Birthdays are the one day of the year where we can ask for – perhaps even demand, as long as it isn’t in the style of Veruca Salt – the things that will bring us great joy and delight, even (and especially) if they are a little absurd, without any question of utility or aesthetic taste.
I was raised to believe that love – primarily maternal, in this sense – had to be earned.
The hugs felt a little warmer when the grades were good. The beaming sense of pride felt a little brighter when I managed some athletic feat. The sense of serenity felt a little more secure when my room was tidy and everything was in its place.
“Daniel – you seem to often know what the right thing is in a given situation. So why is it that you still then elect do the opposite, i.e. dumb shit?”
The preliminary task I had set for myself was among one of the most monumental (and needlessly pressure-filled) objectives I’d ever contrived:
FIND YOUR PURPOSE.
As it turns out, creating authentic and sustainable change is an arduous, laborious and often painful process.
It’s a lot like pulling weeds, in fact.
Walking down Park Avenue one balmy spring day, I realized that I was miserable.
Worse, I realized that this feeling of misery had been there for a long time. Three, maybe four years. I just hadn’t been able to put a name to it until that moment.