Leaping an ocean, searching for a lifetime

I’m a little risk averse. And I’m kind of afraid of heights. Yet somehow, I’ve never been afraid of taking great leaps. It’s the thrill of the unknown. The possibility that I will come across something I’ve never seen before. The opportunity to pull off some piece of old self and reveal something new and […]

The Unselfish Selfishness of Birthdays

Birthdays are the one day of the year where we can ask for – perhaps even demand, as long as it isn’t in the style of Veruca Salt – the things that will bring us great joy and delight, even (and especially) if they are a little absurd, without any question of utility or aesthetic taste.

The Million-Dollar Question, Part 2 – My Mom & I

I was raised to believe that love – primarily maternal, in this sense – had to be earned.

The hugs felt a little warmer when the grades were good. The beaming sense of pride felt a little brighter when I managed some athletic feat. The sense of serenity felt a little more secure when my room was tidy and everything was in its place.

The Painful Realization

Walking down Park Avenue one balmy spring day, I realized that I was miserable.

Worse, I realized that this feeling of misery had been there for a long time. Three, maybe four years. I just hadn’t been able to put a name to it until that moment.